Archive for December, 2007

I gave; Now I’m wanting, something in return…

December 31, 2007   Filed Under: Lost Entries   615 words

I was having a great day today before my boyfriend ruined it. Well, now I’m feeling better, but I’m still upset with him.

It all started when the lady I babysit for gave me tickets to the Miami Dolphins vs. Baltimore Ravens football game. It’s not that I’m a big football fan or anything, but I thought this would be a great opportunity to spend time together. Besides, they were $100 fourth-row tickets, and I think I would enjoy it. I went to a hockey game earlier this year and unexpectedly enjoyed it.

I asked the boyfriend if he wants to go and he said he has to fix a car–drop in an engine. I was explaining to him that this is a once in a lifetime opportunity to get such good seats for free, and he said his dad has given him tickets to Dolphins’ games before. I tried reasoning that I had never been to a live football game before. Didn’t work. He would rather fix his friends’ car. His dad really does get free tickets sometimes…that’s how we got the hockey game tickets, but those seats weren’t as good (they weren’t that bad, though).

Now, I have to say that I do admire the loyalty. He told his friend from this morning that he would switch out the engine, so I can understand that he would want to take the time to do that. But, the actual problem lies in his loyalty to me. Whenever I ask him to do anything for my car, it takes the back seat…no matter how important it is.

I remember when I just got the car in January. Carmax inspected the car and said I need to get the brakes changed right away and have the timing belt adjusted/changed within 10,000 miles. I was going to go to a mechanic to get the brakes changed, but my bf said that he would take care of it. So I waited…and I waited…and I waited. About three months later, when the brakes actually started screaming to be changed (they build in this mechanism so it gets really squeaky before failure so that you’ll avoid crashes due to bad brakes), he finally took care of it. The same thing has happened with pretty much every car problem that I’ve encountered. So, basically, he does stuff for his friends’ cars, as well as his own, right away. Anything to do with my car has to wait.

So I said, “Awesome.” He asked me what I said that for, and I said because everything is truly awesome (regarding how I’m worthless to him and everything else is his top priority). He said that I’m jealous and petty because I’m upset that he’s fixing his friend’s car instead of taking me to the football game (well, not in so many words, but I think that was the point) and when I tried to give a rebuttal he hung up. How rude!

I’ll let you go with a word of advice. If a guy claims he loves you but can’t put you before his friends, do him the same justice. I’m not advocating revenge or spite, but this is actually a smart thing to do. If you put this guy before your own friends, every time he’s hanging out with his, you’ll have nothing to do. And you’ll be upset with him instead of appreciating the fact that you can both have alone time with your friends to relax and not think about romantic stuff. Just like how I had to give my neighbors the tickets instead of going with a friend.

Memorizing the 23rd Psalm

December 31, 2007   Filed Under: Lost Entries   530 words

If reading about scary dreams may result in you having scary dreams, I suggest you move on to the previous entry.

I keep having dreams about the devil strangling me.

The first one happened a few weeks ago. I didn’t have anything to eat before going to bed (lol).

In the first one, I was lying down on my back (something I never do) and I saw a snake crawl along my side, creep around my head, and stare me in the eyes. I knew it was going to strangle me and so I woke up, at this time I felt like the snake was slithering off of me. I was indeed on my back. I got out of bed and turned on the light. I didn’t see anything. It felt like a big snake, like from Harry Potter or Anaconda.

The second one happened December 9^th. I was playing a piano and then I saw three Bibles. I picked up the one in the middle (they looked like they were ritually placed) and began reading it, and suddenly the piano began playing by itself. I began cursing the devil, “Get thee behind me, Satan.” “Leave, in the name of Jesus,” etc. I woke up.

Then the third one happened when I fell back asleep about 5 minutes later. I felt the hands around my neck and I tried to remove them. When I realized he was obviously stronger than me, I tried to wake up my sister who was on a bed beside me (I have a daybed). I started asking God for help and then I woke up. I was in the same position I dreamed myself to be and my sister was in the same position I dreamed her to be. I called her name and she said she’s awake. I told her the dream and she said she heard me moving but didn’t pay it any attention.

What are your takes on this? Is this something that ACTUALLY happens in the spirit realm? Is it JUST a dream? Or is it a MESSAGE from God?

Common interpretations say that I’m hiding an important part of my personality that needs to be expressed. As far as I know, I’m not…

My mother gave me the advice to recite the 23^rd Psalm in the dream. Problem is, I didn’t know it. Now I’m in the process of memorizing it:

The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
He leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul:
He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for His name’s sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil: For thou art with me;
Thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies;
Thou annointest my head with oil; My cup runneth over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the House of the Lord forever.

Please, wish me luck and sweet dreams!

Florida State University Cheating Scandal

December 31, 2007   Filed Under: Lost Entries   403 words

Thanks for all the advice and well wishes. Some of you had really interesting thoughts on the dream analysis subject. In a way, I think the dreams were warnings, and in a way I think they were just dreams. I don’t take drugs, and I’m not holding back anything I’d like to say. I know the drugs thing wasn’t literal, but I just wanted to clear that up!

I was just reading this report about tutors giving student athletes answers to online exams in advance, as well as typing papers on their behalf. Sometimes the tutors would be present while the students are taking online exams, as well as fill in quiz answers (I don’t know if this is online or if the tutors were TA’s and thus grading the quizzes, it’s kind of ambiguous in the report). FSU’s report states the tutor said he has been providing student athletes with answers for tests since Fall 2006. Twenty or more football players may be suspended from future games because of this, and some athletes from other sports as well. Such a big suspension (20+) has occurred in 2000 by the Wisconsin Badgers; 26 football players were suspended for 1-3 games “for getting unadvertised price breaks at a shoe store” (Schlabach, 2000, ESPN.com).

I’ve heard of someone at USF that has girlfriends and the like do his term papers and help him with online exams. I’ve always suspected that students who get athletic scholarships with little academic merit got “extra help.” I always thought it was in the form of free private tutors, though. I never suspected that the tutors gave them answers and actually did their reports. Of course this must be an extreme case, I’m sure there are those who get in based on athletic ability and then strive to be successful in their academic careers as well. There must also be those who were good at both to begin with, right? Personally, I think these student-athletes who do well in both arenas, on their own merit, are great examples of what dedication can bring.

Dedication is the key. It’s the key to unlocking the future of your dreams. For a select few, good things come easily. For majority of us, though, we must work hard to accomplish our goals and achieve true joy.

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