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What Goes Down Doesn’t Necessarily Go Back Up!

July 6, 2008   Filed Under: Life, Pet Peeves, Sweet Thang   429 words

I have to send in my phone to be replaced. It should be covered under the warranty, though, because I didn’t drop it or let water get into it. It just started malfunctioning out of nowhere. I can’t see who is calling me half the time and as a result I have been picking up everyone’s calls. Hopefully no one that I really don’t want to talk to calls me! And if they wanna charge me $50 for the replacement then I’ll just have to deal with it for a very long time. Edit 07/07/2008: It’s not covered under the warranty. Well, it would be if the warranty weren’t expired I’m stuck with this stupid broken phone that keeps getting worse by the hour!

As far as other things go, a few of the comments on my last post said don’t feel too bad about my situation because things can only get better when they are bad. That’s not entirely true, though, and I’ve seen bad situations become worse all-too-many times in my life. I will keep pressing on, though, but no one really knows the extent of my situation so to say that it will get better only makes me want to punch someone in their gut.

My offline friends do the same thing. “Oh, don’t worry, things will work out.” Yeah, that’s because they’re not used to having real problems and the hardest thing they have to deal with is man problems. Not that man problems is nothing to worry about (because I sure as heck do get stressed out when I have them), but most of them are self-inflicted in their case. One has a man who treats her like shit but loves him to death. Another is a freakin’ whore. The list goes on and on. My situation, which I won’t talk about because it’s too personal, isn’t my fault and if it were something that I could fix by removing people from my life I would do it.

I’d like to end this note by saying that I’m not a pessimist. I do believe there will be a brighter day because I am focused and I don’t let my problems overwhelm me. And I’m not depressed either, because I personally know people whose lives are more screwed up than my own is. I am pissy, though…pissy when it comes to people who think that saying “things will get better” makes a difference–they have no clue what’s going to happen. In my opinion, it’s just not right…

The Last Thing I Need

July 5, 2008   Filed Under: Aspirations, College, Life   312 words

I thought that I would have until the end of this year to pay off my past due tuition bill from 2007-2008, but alas, I just got a letter in the mail saying that it’s going into collections if not paid in full by 07/17/2008. I guess it’s going to go there, then. That means no house for a good 7 years after I get to pay it off, because collections stay on record for quite a while. I guess I could live with that, but of course that means another rearrangement of plans–which I hate. Why does everything I plan turn out otherwise? I guess it is time to stop making plans and setting goals. o.O

I was planning to apply for a loan in December, since I estimated that by then my credit score will be over 700 and I’d have a fairly good chance of getting one, but I don’t know anymore. If it’s already going in collections, why not leave it until I can get a settlement and pay 50% or less of what I actually owe? My brother used to work in collections so I know that after a while they’ll do anything to get their money.

If I apply for a loan now, I’d say there’s several reasons why I wouldn’t get it. My credit card balances are too high (though thankfully none are maxed out and I’ve never been late on a payment!) and my income is too low–and I’m not sure it’s even provable since I haven’t really been keeping track. Tax time is going to be a bitch since I plan on reporting my babysitting income and will have to go through all my deposits to figure out how much I made. Maybe I’ll just forget it altogether. It’s so hard to think of the future when I’m so stressed out about the “here and now.”

Must I Be So Lazy?

June 27, 2008   Filed Under: Life, Volunteer   135 words

So I didn’t call the lady about volunteering last week Monday. I didn’t do it this week Monday, either. I guess maybe next week Monday I’ll get around to doing it…I won’t be babysitting since the little girl I’ve been watching is going on a little trip. I really hope I’ll work up the nerve to do it because I can’t just sit here wasting away.

Well, I haven’t just been wasting away but life seems pretty pointless when there isn’t much to do. I’ve realized this before but I haven’t really had the opportunity to have nothing to do for a really long time so now I’m really feeling the burn.

Anyways, I have to go eat something because I’m starving. And the reason I’m starving is because I’m a woman…go figure…

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